Try to see your motives

Try to see your motives. All of us must examine our motives because the motive is the only way to take initiation. You take initiation not because of your service, not because of your knowledge, not because of your position, not because of your consciousness even. You take initiation if you have right motive and right actualization of your motive, because any wrong motive after you take initiation destroys you. That is how you become an initiate and the next day you die. When you are a first degree initiate and enter into the domain of a second degree initiate, your flea turns into a giant.

-Torkom Saraydarian
Virtues & Values vol.2, p.151